My cup overfloweth

Well since I am in a new home, working a new (sort of) job, and at a fairly new place in life, I figured it was time for me to blog. Let me start out by saying I feel happier than I have felt in a very long time. It's not that I was unhappy before, but for the past few weeks, I have woken up every day filled with an irresistible joy and excitement for the day and for the future. This is big: I am finally not worrying about the future. Lately, I have been trying really hard to submit my plans to God. I still am not sure what I will do after I graduate (although I do have a little better idea), but I think I am finally feeling peace about it. The future is huge and bright and scary and full of promise all at the same time. But I finally realized...how awesome is it that the future is not in my control? Thank GOD that it does not all depend on me and my choices. I am sure that if it was up to me, I would mess it up big time. But you know what? I fully trust that God has an incredible adventure planned for me. I hope this doesn't sound conceited or prideful, like I think I deserve some really fantastic life - that's not it at all. In fact, I am certain that my life will not be easy or comfortable, which is honestly fine by me. I just truly believe that if I submit my will to His, then He will lead me through some incredible life experiences, because He loves me. He knows what I can handle, what will break me, when I need to be broken, and how to help me pick up the pieces. God has brought people into my life who love Him and love me enough to make sure I don't lose my mind or my faith. And to you, those people, I am forever thankful! I hope you know who you are.

I guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed with some pretty strong emotions right now. The main emotion is thankfulness. I'm thankful for people, for God's timing, for the fact that I can be completely dependent on Him and that I don't need to try life alone. Whew. I have been very blessed, and I don't know why God chose to give me all that He has given. I just know that I need to accept it with humility. Pride vs. humility - that is another whole lesson right there, one that I need to continually work on...

Anyway, I hope you were at least a little encouraged by my ramblings. I am pretty much overflowing with thoughts and feelings all swirling around in my head. Hopefully I can share some more of them with you all in person very soon!

Love always,
Heather