Ummmm....wow.

Hello beady sisters of mine. OH boy, so I have not blogged in what seems like ages...and for that I apologize! I feel like my life has been a whirlwind of emotion lately and I've been living in my own safe little hole very comfortably. As it turns out, broken hearts are actually a legit thing. It really doess hurt! Hm. I miss all three of you soo much, and have at least been grateful to have katie so close to me and am excited to be seeing her more. Sisters, I have been feeling better! Praiisssse God because I literally did not think this was possible so soon. It felt like I couldn't see any end to my pain and sadness. And now, I can honestly say that I can. Though my relationship with God is lacking on my part...it's just good to have a sense of hope again. I of course still have kind of a hole in my heart, and don't know how long I will feel it, but I'm confident that God and the people who love me will help me through it.
My classes are going well, however there is so much over lap because I'm basically taking allll sociology/crim classes so at times if feels pretty redundant. I'm enjoying them for the most part, but because of everything I've been going through recently it's been superrr hard to find any motivation to do my work. It was random that when all of this started happening in my life, I was completely becoming overloaded with school annd now work. It was rough. Now I'm finding a good balance for myself that I think will keep me a bit healthier. Especially mentally, ha. I really do love work. I like everyone that I work with and love being able to interact with people in that fun setting all day. I kinda had to slow down on my work schedule for the rest of this semester though, because my school work was so behind. As you three mayyy know?..when I am really upset emotionally, I get literallyy sick. ha So I'm actually juust finishing "phase 2" of my cold. It's been pretty annoying and definitely got in the way of my classes. So..priorities. lol. I musstt graduate. I did not come allll this way for nothing. It's funny though because at several points through my reallyyy rough patch I literally thought about dropping out. Thatt is how confused and lost I felt. I didn't even think I could make it through school the way I felt. I don't really know how else to describe it. Ohh man.
OOOkkk..so special request from Elisa. My bus story. So this morning my mom and I were driving into Lakewood. She usually drops me off on clifton so I can catch the bus there and then she drives to work. Today we were running wayy behind, so she asked if we could just go straight to her work and convinced me that I could just as easily take the 26 bus on detroit. I have never taken this bus before...and didn't quiitte know where it would take me. However, I'm pretty used to freestyling bus trips from commuting for 4 years. lol. So I walked onto detroit, and saw the bus coming. I didn't know how far away I was from the next stop...so I just ran. lol. I finally found one in time, and hopped onto the bus. It was huge, like..one of the Healthline buses (kite would know) : ). The bus was pretty empty actually. Oh yea..and I saw when the bus was coming towards me that it was going to east 13th street. So I was like..Ok..I basically know where that is. So all of a sudden the bus is sooo packed. It was like..mayhem. This one elderly woman (pretty sure she had no teeth which is why there was so much spit flying out of her mouth) who got on the bus and immediately started screaming. Like...swearing..threatening...I was freaked out. She was actually eyeing me down too. lol. I definitely would nott want to cross her on the street at night. Or anytime of day for that matter. So thenn these two creepy men get on. They sit riiiight next to me. I was so squished. I'm like..really? Oh well. But he had suuper long nails, and smelled awful. They were speaking some other language..but come on. I knoww when people are talking about me! They kept looking over and smiling and giggling and I was like..awwesome sauce. Then this really cute guy got on the bus and instead of sitting in..oh..idk..a seat? He stood riiiight in front of me holding onto the pole (ha, that sounds funny) and facingg me! It was so awkward! I didn't even know where to look! And then he persisted to ask me what my name was..and if I had a boyfriend. And I was over it pretty quickly. He got creepy reeeall fast. So we finally got near tower city so I hopped off. (so did cute boy). So then I saw a healthline about to leave so I jumped on that. I was standing near the front, and there were three old men standin up (well, one was in a hoveround)...and one old woman sitting by them. They all kept calling her their wife, soo i was kind of confused. However, I used my deductive reasoning skills to conclude that she wass in fact Hoveround's wife. But thenn Bus Stop (that was his nick name) leaned over and started intimately kissing her!!! And hoveround was looking..but he didnt say anything. So I was like, oh. Maybe she's bus stop's wife, and hoveround was just jokin. But thenn willyy was like..shooo he takin your ladyyy haha. And I'm like..whaaat??...crazy!! (in my head). And then Willy started talkin about how he woke up the other morning in his bed with two random women! He was like..ehhh I didnt even know who they werrre!! Ohhh man. At this point one of them started talking to me..and I was like..ding ding! Get off the bus Hannah. Sooo I did. Wow. I just...it all didnt even seem real. It already feels like I lived the whole day. lol.
Well beadies...I love you all. Elisa! I get to see you for halloweenn!!! yayyy. Cannot wait sister. Heather, I'll apparentlyy be seein you in December! Good enough for me! I'll take what I can get! ; ) And Kite..well..I'll see ya. YOu know.

Hannah Grace

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