Well HELLLOOOO therrrre!

Ohhhh wow beadies. I feel…ridiculous that I have not posted on our beloved blog in SUCH a long time now. I miss all of you very much, and just had a great time hanging out and havin a sleepover with Katesters. : ) I dyed her hair, hence the video, and we just hung out laughing. After waking up we had a good conversation about the future. haha That sounded like I'm about to say that she proposed or something. lol. I was telling Katie about the fact that I'm a little bit scared of the future. And all at the same time I have this vision for my life, I just have no idea how to get close to it.

My mom came in my room today and told me to take the test online this week before friday to be a police officer. One of her good friends is the chief of Police of Avon Lake, so he is always pushing me to go into that field. I mean, I guess I could kind offf picture doing that as far as "conventional jobs" go, but at the same time…it just doesn't seem like…me. I totally understand why they're pushing me towards it because of the pay and the obvious benefits, and I respect that, but that's one of my biggest fears. I'm afraid of settling. I always have been so afraid of settling in life, in any facet, and just ending up unhappy and lost.

In all honesty, I don't like the idea of changing myself or having to disguise parts of myself in order to fit into a job. I can't even picture it. That's why I so much want to work with small individual film productions. Obviously I am not planning on getting a film degree, I don't want that. However, I think becoming involved at least with other people's projects is a very realistic goal. Just by researching and making connections and putting myself out there, you know? For right now though, I am very content. I can't really remember the last time I was content in life. I am loving working down town at Starbucks and love every one I work with. I have never experienced that before. It's so much fun walking into work and not feeling like you are. It seriously just feels like I'm meeting up with my friends to serve people coffee. haha. For this year, I am content being here and have actually been really enjoying Cleveland.

Also, on the news front, Kristin Wilkinson and I are still in our apartment search! I am SO excited to be doing this, and know that she will be an awesome room mate. We're gonna have a blast. We are looking in Lakewood. It's a very central location to everything that both of us do and, especially for me, is the hub of all public transportation! yayyy! So, hopefully it all works out for the best. : ) And Heather, kwilks and I are soooo excited to be coming to visit you at the end of this month. It's going to be AWWESOMME. So get ready for us. Beadies, I love you all and thanks so much for always puttin up with me and my, at times, crazy life.

Love,

Hannah Grace