When my world is shaking, heaven stands

Not being in school is strange. Especially for a school lover like myself. I think it took finishing school to fully realize what a nerd I am. I make homework for myself. I read books that I wouldn't normally read on my own volition, just to challenge myself. But I do a lot of depressing things too. Work is, to me, pretty depressing. I dread going to work every time I go in. I don't often admit to hating my job, because theoretically it should be good. But I just hate it. It's meaningless. Which is why, when I went back to Laura's Home today, I had so much fun. I wasn't doing anything fun, exactly. I just had a blast doing things that matter, and seeing people that I love.
Overall though, life is pretty unstable now. Day to day, nothing unpredictable happens. But I feel this constant weight of not knowing exactly what's next. I spent a lot of time in the Old Testament this summer, which gave me some comfort in understanding God's plan for the world, but I didn't realize that I was missing some very foundational things by not reading the New Testament for so long. I read Colossians 1 today. Go read it. Seriously. Stop reading this blog and go read it.

Done? This chapter is so confusing to me in so many ways. It's so complex. There's so much going on. But here's what stuck out to me today:
1. Of this you have heard before in the word of the truth, the gospel, which has come to you, as indeed in the whole world it is bearing fruit and growing The gospel is bearing fruit and growing in the whole world! What an easy thing to forget about! I am planning on going into the world, into a different place, and I forgot that God is already working in the hearts of people that I will meet. And the Gospel is so powerful. And I am going for the Gospel's sake. What a privelege!
2. Giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in light. We are qualified. I'm not exactly sure how. It's a mystery. I know it's through Christ. And I don't feel qualified. But I am. Right now.
3. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together. Right now, I need to hear this. In him all things hold together. In HIM all things hold together. Even when it seems like things are falling apart, and when everything seems arbitrary, I can know that He is holding it all together. He is actively keeping my life and your life from falling to pieces. Because certainly, if I were left to my own devices, I would be in pieces.

So, there you have it. A glimpse into the mind of a recent college grad, with not enough to do, and not enough trust. I think God is teaching me. If I knew the whole plan right now, I probably wouldn't want to do it. So I'll stick with finding things out in His timing.

I love you all. It was so wonderful being together over the weekend, and so great celebrating another beady wedding.

Peace sisters :)

~Kate

PS Did you notice that I even blog like it's homework....?

Greetings From the Grassy Knoll!